Pulling a shard out of my side
Oct. 15th, 2005 04:13 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pphaneufThursday, I went out to get a close shave. I was a bit late already, but this was important to me. I then went and picked up Timin from ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sfllaw. I then realized I had forgotten my tickets to the show, so I headed back home, picked those up. It was a bit of a weird drive getting there, particularly up to Toronto, then I went a bit numb, from all that thinking. Stuck in the traffic in Toronto, I realized I had also forgotten my sleeping bag.
After picking up all the appropriate people in Waterloo (includingsh8der_boi, who met there), we headed back to Toronto to see The Decemberists. I finally told elliptic_curve of my crush on her back when we had the Mozilla release party, and apparently it was reciprocal, so that had me shiny. It was a great show, although I am a bit disappointed that they didn't let me enter with my DSLR (not really surprising, but I had hope). We wandered around in the rather iffy Chinatown to get some food. We then headed back to Waterloo, where I had some California wine and good discussion with elliptic_curve.
Today, I started the day with the ghetto experience that itelliptic_curve's shower. We then headed over to Vincenzo's, where we had some good sandwiches, chocolate, coffee and more of that good conversation. The fact that I had a very hard decision to do pretty much sinked in after that.
I then headed over to the realtime lab at Waterloo, which I eventually reached after some amount of wandering about the campus. I met up with the appropriate people, as well asmusicdieu, whom I didn't realized I missed that much, I was very happy to see him, actually cheered me some, which I am very appreciative of. As they have "pantsless fridays" at the realtime lab, I followed the rule, of course. Discussed the finer points of preemptive scheduling, hard realtime latency requirements and C++ templates, as well as having some fine oolong tea. We then headed over to some dubious asian restaurant, but I wasn't really hungry.
I then drove back to Toronto with my favourite person. Discussed things much on the way. I shall push myself away.
I still feel the same about her. Seems like I traded off a dull background pain for a much sharper, in my face kind of pain, but this is out of respect for myself, I had to do something. All of the options were going to hurt, so here I am, and it does.
One might think that I didn't have much to lose, but it seems that what little I had was extremely precious to me. I threw it away myself. I need a hug.
sfllaw. I then realized I had forgotten my tickets to the show, so I headed back home, picked those up. It was a bit of a weird drive getting there, particularly up to Toronto, then I went a bit numb, from all that thinking. Stuck in the traffic in Toronto, I realized I had also forgotten my sleeping bag.After picking up all the appropriate people in Waterloo (including
sh8der_boi, who met there), we headed back to Toronto to see The Decemberists. I finally told elliptic_curve of my crush on her back when we had the Mozilla release party, and apparently it was reciprocal, so that had me shiny. It was a great show, although I am a bit disappointed that they didn't let me enter with my DSLR (not really surprising, but I had hope). We wandered around in the rather iffy Chinatown to get some food. We then headed back to Waterloo, where I had some California wine and good discussion with elliptic_curve.Today, I started the day with the ghetto experience that it
elliptic_curve's shower. We then headed over to Vincenzo's, where we had some good sandwiches, chocolate, coffee and more of that good conversation. The fact that I had a very hard decision to do pretty much sinked in after that.I then headed over to the realtime lab at Waterloo, which I eventually reached after some amount of wandering about the campus. I met up with the appropriate people, as well as
musicdieu, whom I didn't realized I missed that much, I was very happy to see him, actually cheered me some, which I am very appreciative of. As they have "pantsless fridays" at the realtime lab, I followed the rule, of course. Discussed the finer points of preemptive scheduling, hard realtime latency requirements and C++ templates, as well as having some fine oolong tea. We then headed over to some dubious asian restaurant, but I wasn't really hungry.I then drove back to Toronto with my favourite person. Discussed things much on the way. I shall push myself away.
I still feel the same about her. Seems like I traded off a dull background pain for a much sharper, in my face kind of pain, but this is out of respect for myself, I had to do something. All of the options were going to hurt, so here I am, and it does.
One might think that I didn't have much to lose, but it seems that what little I had was extremely precious to me. I threw it away myself. I need a hug.
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Date: 2005-10-16 06:39 pm (UTC)No, I just woke up, around 2pm, and I think I'll be busy the rest of the day, but maybe we could have coffee monday? Just tell me the time you finish or something, and I'll figure out the rest...