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Pulling a shard out of my side
Oct. 15th, 2005 04:13 amThursday, I went out to get a close shave. I was a bit late already, but this was important to me. I then went and picked up Timin from ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sfllaw. I then realized I had forgotten my tickets to the show, so I headed back home, picked those up. It was a bit of a weird drive getting there, particularly up to Toronto, then I went a bit numb, from all that thinking. Stuck in the traffic in Toronto, I realized I had also forgotten my sleeping bag.
After picking up all the appropriate people in Waterloo (includingsh8der_boi, who met there), we headed back to Toronto to see The Decemberists. I finally told elliptic_curve of my crush on her back when we had the Mozilla release party, and apparently it was reciprocal, so that had me shiny. It was a great show, although I am a bit disappointed that they didn't let me enter with my DSLR (not really surprising, but I had hope). We wandered around in the rather iffy Chinatown to get some food. We then headed back to Waterloo, where I had some California wine and good discussion with elliptic_curve.
Today, I started the day with the ghetto experience that itelliptic_curve's shower. We then headed over to Vincenzo's, where we had some good sandwiches, chocolate, coffee and more of that good conversation. The fact that I had a very hard decision to do pretty much sinked in after that.
I then headed over to the realtime lab at Waterloo, which I eventually reached after some amount of wandering about the campus. I met up with the appropriate people, as well asmusicdieu, whom I didn't realized I missed that much, I was very happy to see him, actually cheered me some, which I am very appreciative of. As they have "pantsless fridays" at the realtime lab, I followed the rule, of course. Discussed the finer points of preemptive scheduling, hard realtime latency requirements and C++ templates, as well as having some fine oolong tea. We then headed over to some dubious asian restaurant, but I wasn't really hungry.
I then drove back to Toronto with my favourite person. Discussed things much on the way. I shall push myself away.
I still feel the same about her. Seems like I traded off a dull background pain for a much sharper, in my face kind of pain, but this is out of respect for myself, I had to do something. All of the options were going to hurt, so here I am, and it does.
One might think that I didn't have much to lose, but it seems that what little I had was extremely precious to me. I threw it away myself. I need a hug.
sfllaw. I then realized I had forgotten my tickets to the show, so I headed back home, picked those up. It was a bit of a weird drive getting there, particularly up to Toronto, then I went a bit numb, from all that thinking. Stuck in the traffic in Toronto, I realized I had also forgotten my sleeping bag.After picking up all the appropriate people in Waterloo (including
sh8der_boi, who met there), we headed back to Toronto to see The Decemberists. I finally told elliptic_curve of my crush on her back when we had the Mozilla release party, and apparently it was reciprocal, so that had me shiny. It was a great show, although I am a bit disappointed that they didn't let me enter with my DSLR (not really surprising, but I had hope). We wandered around in the rather iffy Chinatown to get some food. We then headed back to Waterloo, where I had some California wine and good discussion with elliptic_curve.Today, I started the day with the ghetto experience that it
elliptic_curve's shower. We then headed over to Vincenzo's, where we had some good sandwiches, chocolate, coffee and more of that good conversation. The fact that I had a very hard decision to do pretty much sinked in after that.I then headed over to the realtime lab at Waterloo, which I eventually reached after some amount of wandering about the campus. I met up with the appropriate people, as well as
musicdieu, whom I didn't realized I missed that much, I was very happy to see him, actually cheered me some, which I am very appreciative of. As they have "pantsless fridays" at the realtime lab, I followed the rule, of course. Discussed the finer points of preemptive scheduling, hard realtime latency requirements and C++ templates, as well as having some fine oolong tea. We then headed over to some dubious asian restaurant, but I wasn't really hungry.I then drove back to Toronto with my favourite person. Discussed things much on the way. I shall push myself away.
I still feel the same about her. Seems like I traded off a dull background pain for a much sharper, in my face kind of pain, but this is out of respect for myself, I had to do something. All of the options were going to hurt, so here I am, and it does.
One might think that I didn't have much to lose, but it seems that what little I had was extremely precious to me. I threw it away myself. I need a hug.
