Feeling your feelings goes both ways, doesn't it?

[pphaneuf]

Had a very good time this weekend. I had a few shadows pass over me, at times, but even that couldn't prevent me from enjoying myself with one of my favourite people.

Dropped her off at the bus station with a partner in crime. I'm such a silly boy, I could feel my heart beating so hard inside my chest...

It's an odd life I lead. I subject myself to rather questionable pains, but somehow, I'm happier that way. I'm left full of contradictions, but that's just how these "emotions" things are sometimes. I've been told not to work myself too much over it, and while I won't do it too much, it's in my ways to feel things through rather than push them off and repress them. Still, despite our various differences, I appreciate the care very much. Thanks.

It seems that you can't have the good without the bad, and I like having the good, so I accept the bad. But really, as I have told a few people today, it is really a testament to how happy I am if I still consider myself that lucky even over all these troubles. Trust me, it is worth the pain.

I'm still rather bitter about that society of normal people around me. I'd like to tell everything to that other guy, get it out of my system, once and for all. Maybe that is the right thing to do. I have to strain a lot to believe that not telling or hiding the truth might be the right thing to do.

I appreciate the strong support I have received from my other favourite person. This is the kind of thing I think about when I feel so lucky. It really shows me the true meaning of caring for someone, although at the same time, it underlines those things in society I am bitter about.

I've cried some, and probably will go have a hot shower and do as another of my favourite people taught me, when things are bad...

Edit: Gah, I'm so emo sometimes. Well, that's how it is, so fuck off. :-)

Comments

[pphaneuf.livejournal.com]

Yeah, the weekend itself was great! Just the end, where all sorts of things mixed up, and brought me to feeling rather weird and icky.

I'd go through that again, given a week or two to recuperate, no question about it.

[gregorama.livejournal.com]

You must have seen this then?

http://emosong.ytmnd.com/

[pphaneuf.livejournal.com]

Yes, I've seen it, from your LJ, in fact, as I read my friends page right after writing this. I laughed a good deal, then added the emo comment. :-)

[amazonchicken.livejournal.com]

Not entirely sure what you're talking about ... then again I might be, in which case I'd rather not jump to any conclusions ...

Either way, here's a hug! I'm here if you need an ear, or a shoulder.

*big hugs*

[pphaneuf.livejournal.com]

When we meet, I shall explain.

[amazonchicken.livejournal.com]

If you want, don't feel obligated or anything.

I think I've pretty well gathered the gist of what's going on ... more or less. I've never been all that good at multi-tasking ;)

Either way, I'm here if you need me.

[pphaneuf.livejournal.com]

Oh, that's quite okay. I'm not really a private person, and I prefer that the people around me know what is going on, it's less confusing that way.