Cheese and wine

I am not following my usual "write once a day" routine very well, so I have to play a bit of catch-up...

The weekend started off well, as I went with lady azrhey to Alpenhaus friday evening. Cheese and wine and meat and more wine, it was very good. I had the misfortune of being sat just beside a huge cow bell, which spent all evening tempting me to ring it... I liked the place much, despite the apparently lack of rüsti on the menu.

Was rather tired at the end of the evening, but that was a good coincidence, as we had to get up early saturday (gasp!).

Get up early, break a laptop.

Saturday morning, we went to check out free furniture at azrhey's workplace, as they are redecorating. We ended up mostly waiting in the lobby of their building, standing in line, early in the morning. When we finally entered, there wasn't anything of interest after all, but still helped out one of her co-worker get some stuff, so it wasn't really wasted. I didn't have too high expectations anyway, more of a "if I find something, that's cool". Meh. Went back to bed, because, you know, sleep is good!

It had been a few times that azrhey mentioned she wanted to have someone adept at these things install Linux on her laptop, so I figured I could give it a whirl that evening, watching television idly and stuff. That didn't work out too well (if you're interested, I wrote about it in my other diary). In short, I just about turned her laptop into an expensive paperweight. As it was getting late, decided to go to sleep and work on this the next day, refreshed.

Yes, I *am* sleeping!

Sunday morning, got a call from ayria, seeing if I'd be up for mischief. As it was not even 11am (on a sunday, no less!), no I was most emphatically not up, although I'm most always mischievous. She would have stood half a chance of dragging me out of bed normally, but I had a paperweight to turn back into a laptop. After plenty of trying, I finally got it repaired. No working Linux, but musicdieu gave me some tips today that might give way to a new attempt, with hopefully more success.

By the end of it, it was suppertime, and azrhey's parents, in good portuguese fashion, took it upon themselves to stuff me with food. Yes, I'm sure I'm not hungry anymore!

Tried to catch up on the weekend, doing actually fun stuff that evening, rather than worrying about having destroyed a laptop. This was more successful. The weekend was kind of weird, not being entirely fun, but not entirely unpleasant, having some cuddle time while stupid computers did their thing.

No one ever really leaves your life.

Woke up to see a smile, then upon arriving at work today, was greeted by a smiling ayria, which is one of my favorite way to be greeted, quickly to be followed by an equally radiant musicdieu fondling me a bit. That was a good start to the day, and turns out I was going to need it. I missed those people, I'm very glad to have them around again!

Got to get a background track of hub_'s bitching about the horror of a certain number of things, cursing various hardware and software manufacturers abundantly. He's got a bitch of a job to do, so I understand.

Worked on one of these bugs where it's not really a complicated idea, but it has so many special cases, exceptions and corner cases that it get to be complicated anyway. Hate those, but I got it all figured out, I think. I saw some possible problems, but nothing serious, and all outside of the spec, so it should be all fine like this.

Remembered that I had mrwise's coop student evaluation form to fill in. Gah, I have no word to say how much I hate those. Stayed much later at work than I expected, going over corner cases, coming up with crap to fill in forms, etc...

I'm feeling this strange "depressed about some things, but happy about others" feeling again, and it might very have had to do with my staying late at the office. I didn't really have to, but had a hard time pushing myself out. Had plans of cooking myself some food and putting further order in my study, but ended up nibbling on a few things and being too late and tired.

I'm also having a very odd phase of dipping back into mourning denizsarikaya, starting maybe with a friend's unexpected electronic encounter with her and then my own. Then, going to Alpenhaus friday with azrhey, wasn't direct, but she obviously had many memories with Denzo there, and there were a few moments were something was said, and we just went silent... Sometime during the weekend, I found myself shedding a few tears. Today, ayria stopped and noticed the small memorial we have at work, which attracted my attention, and tied a bit of a knot in my stomach again. I hear echoes of her friends from all over, remembering her, wondering what happened, missing her...

I don't want to hide from my feelings, I like to wallow in them and feel them through, this is still quite manageable and I'm well surrounded/supported, but still, it is not the most enjoyable.

I'm looking very much forward to tomorrow's dinner at Old Dublin, as I'll have all of my very favorite people together, which has always been very happy and joyful moments in the past, and it has been a long time.

And here I am now, not going to bed. I'll go now.