pphaneuf | Not dead yet

I haven't written in a while, which is what generally happens when I get hurt and don't feel too good.

I'm still processing, but that seems normal to me, past experiences put it at a few months to do so. At least, this time, for the first time, I'm not alone, and I'm rather glad, because I'd be pretty miserable. Combined with still being in my evaluation period at my new job, I might have flaked out and lost the job over this, which would have put me in deep shit, for sure. Many mornings,

azrhey kicked me out of bed, and then out the door.

Didn't get to have the effects of the "breakup diet", as I think I've put on some weight, actually. Hey there! I can hear you saying how I shouldn't complain and all, but I know how hard it is to lose weight, as I've done it in the past and found it quite difficult, even if it wasn't much weight loss I did. So my strategy is to avoid gaining it, since it's a pain in the arse, and since I find it's a bit of a slippery slope, I try to spot it early. I try to exercise, biking hard when I do my commute, but I'm probably not doing enough. Bleh.

Without going into repressing, I've tried to keep things reasonable by not reading some LJs that I tend to get emotional about, doing only the occasional spot checking. I expect to read the whole backlog, though, wouldn't want to miss a thing! I do miss

tygrbabe very much, though, and it doesn't help that Toulouse seems to have a noticeable population of short-haired cute punk girls.

And I miss many, many other people too. I'm not even going to think of going into listing them. Sometimes, I wonder if I love too much for my own good, but I'm averse to this kind of opinion. People I love, past and present, never seems to leave me. I sometimes think of girls I had crushes for, even as far back as my big high school crush, almost 15 years later. I remember vividly seeing her again, maybe 5 or 6 years ago, on the metro, spotting her face on the rush hour crowd on the platform, many years after having seen her last, and still getting that feeling inside... Rather amazing.

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